I had an amazing time in Germany. I got to spend time with one of my dear friends Lulu who I only get to see once a year if I am lucky. We had a slumber party which was fun, I ate German food, I got to see the beautiful countryside and experience a new culture, and overall it was very relaxed and a really great time.
However, the plane/train ride just made me so emotional. I wasn't crying or anything (though I deeply wanted to) I just had this heavy overwhelming feeling of emotions.
My heart literally was hurting and it felt so heavy in my chest. Full of sadness. Sadness because I missed people and I was ready to go home. At the same time it felt light, I was so happy to be having this amazing experience and to discover God on deeper and new levels. How one's heart can feel both of this extreme emotions is beyond me but it does.
I honestly thought that once it hit the first month mark everything would be easy and I would get the "I never want to go home" feeling but it was just the opposite.
Last night I talked to Barry on the phone and he was able to really encourage me and help me see through my emotions and this morning I spent time with my Father and he allowed me to see everything clearly.
This morning as I poured my heart out to God and asked him to take all these emotions and burdens and fill me with his joy and peace my sadness was washed away. I immediately started to feel better, and of course I walked outside to go to class to find sunshine and warm weather.
I wore flip flops today if that shows how beautiful the weather was today!
Again, the theme of this semester is that GOD PROVIDES.
He really does, for the small things and the big things HE PROVIDES. That is what he does, as our Father, Protector, Provider, Creator our everything...he provides!
God thank you that you love me enough to provide and take care of me! From the smallest and silliest things to the biggest and scariest of things! Thank you daddy for loving me and wrapping me in your arms when things get hard and I want to give up, thank you for loving me!
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