A Cold Cold Day

Last night Kelsey, Kate, Bernice and I went to the Vineyard church. It was really neat. They had a different set up last night and the pastor did a workshop on healing and the holy spirit. It was kind of charismatic and I had never seen it presented quite that way, but I totally understood what he was saying. I think the other girls felt a little uncomfortable or skeptical of it, which is understandable but they are all very open minded which is great.
After church we went back to Kate and Bernice's house for the superbowl, we ordered Domino's (which surprisingly didn't make me feel sick) and stayed up until 3:00am to unfortunately watch the saints win =(. All in all it was fun, especially because Kelsey's roommate Fin and his friend came over and they had never watched American football so it was fun to explain everything to them and see their reactions to the game.
This morning I slept in a little since I went to bed really late the night before, and sadly awoke to a freezing cold house. After spending some time with Jesus, I got ready to jump in the shower and start the rest of my day. To my surprise along with having no heat, we also had no hot water which meant no shower. I went down to the accommodation office at 10:30am and they did not come and fix it until about 5:00pm needless to say I was very cold all day long.
I stayed inside all day doing some reading for my theater class, and talking to Amandine about France and the differences between France, England and America. It was really nice to finally talk to my roommates for a while instead of just seeing them as we pass in and out of the house. I also did my first load of laundry today and was surprised to learn that it takes about 2 -2 1/2 hours do wash your clothes, plus however long it takes for them to air dry.
I went to my class at 4:15, we talked about a feminist/lesbian writer named Adrienne Rich and discussed her theories and writings. She is a very interesting person and has some very different and contradictory beliefs but it was a new perspective on things I suppose.
When I got home from class I was happy to feel that we had finally received heat in our home.

Amongst all of the physical turmoil today, I was also having quite a bit of emotional turmoil. This seems so strange because not only two days ago I wrote such an uplifting and spiritual blog but today I was feeling the exact opposite. I am not sure why but for some reason I am really struggling with doubts and my purpose here. I feel really confused and I am just not sure what to make of the situation. I know this all sounds rather vague but I don't exactly know how to express the way I am feeling. I do know that I need prayer. Prayer that God will clearly reveal to me my purpose and what he has in store, prayer that I will trust him to lead me and guide me in this adventure, and prayer that I will love his people the way he loves them and be a light that encourages others.

God show me what I am doing here!