Time is Running Out

Well my time here in England is slowly coming to an end, and when things end they usually come with many final gatherings and goodbyes. This week I grabbed a cuppa with my friend Temi, we sat in this cute little cafe in Beverley and talked about my term here in England and all the beautiful things our Father has done and is doing in our lives.

While we were talking she said something to me that really stuck out. I had mentioned how I felt God had called me to come abroad and that coming to England was much more then a study abroad experience. I told her how I felt that God wanted me to do things for his kingdom but his plans were much different then mind. She said to me, that sometimes its not about coming to England and converting all of England sometimes its about having fun, God wants us to have fun, and learning how to serve God through our daily lives. She went on to say some other very sweet and beautiful things but this particularly stuck out to me because lately I had been doubting whether or not I lived up to the call that God had giving me to come here. (I know by this point any insecurity of mine does not come as a shock!)

I have been praying a lot lately, asking God to bring me confirmation that I served him and I lived for him and showed people his love and who he is, but I still let this insecurities creep in.
I had to remind myself that I did it God's way and not my way, so the results and the outcome was completely different, but I still kept doubting.

But, this morning the weather was beautiful and I decided to go for a run. As I was running one of my favorite Christian artists (Jimmy Needham) came on my ipod and these words stuck out to me.

We pass out paper facts all week but they won't come around, we can debate theology but they won't come around, apologetic reasoining but they won't come around come around, there's only one way they'll come and its love.

Now to be honest I heard the words and thought to myself, 'Man those are some really great lyrics' and didn't think much of it until later on. But when later on came I realized that God was showing me that I loved people. I fasted, had bible studies, made dinners, talked, laughed, traveled with people because of His love in me and my love for Him.

Not that everything I said or did this term was perfect but I realized that God taught me how to love the people around me through my actions and daily life, rather then bringing them a flyer and the answers to every question.

Thank you Jesus for your love! =)